Sunday, May 29, 2005

Life can be funny...

I was thinking the other day what it would be like for me right now if I had not left school this past semester. When I left I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown because I have 2 pre-schooler and I was trying to homeschool one in 5-K and I had a house to keep and a husband to tend to. I also had classes that took up about 40-50 hours of time per week as well as study time at home which came to about 20 more a week. I was gaining weight and exercised everyday but to no avail. I would cry on my way to classes sometimes thinking that I wanted to be home with my kids and not off to school. I loved my clinical at the hospital very much and my patients were so much fun but every time I would hear a television on in a patients room I would get a lump in my throat. One time I heard "everybody Loves Raymond" on TV and I became saddened and angry that I was not home cleaning my table off after making lunch for the kids and then kissing my husband as he walked in the door from work. There were lots of times that I felt so brain dead that I could no longer think rationally about much. My thoughts would wonder as I was driving which got scary a couple times. There were lots of times when I would remember getting into my van and all of a sudden I was at my destination spot and I do not remember anything in between. That freaked me out a bit.
I am not in school now and I can feel a significant change in my stress levels and my health in general. I feel good and I love that I am with my kids and that I can schedule things with the kids like play dates and the park. I can do errands for my husband now and I even got into selling AVON which I am liking a lot. Yes, you could say I am an over achiever (I was 3.8 GPA in nursing school and that with a family and home to run) but I like to keep busy. AVON is really helping to keep me busy but at the same time I have all the time in the world for my family. I will go back to school to be an RN but not while the kids are so young. They need me.
Wow, I am rambling, huh? Sorry. I did want to mention that I have lost 5 lbs since leaving school. Granted I am doing a semi-low carb thing but without the stresses I can manage what I eat better and I feel like my blood pressure (was always normal but went high the last few months) is back to normal. There is one thing I need to get fixed now and that is my back. I have a herniated disc in my lower back and it has been this way since 8/04 and it seems to have gotten worse the past few weeks. Even the medication that was helping me at night is no longer working. I do not have insurance so going in to the docs office is not something I can always do. I was scheduled to have an MRI done but unfortunately without insurance that is not an option. We need the money to send out oldest to a Christian school in the fall.
Anyway, That is what has been on my mind lately. Boring huh? Sorry, my life is pretty dull.

Monday, May 09, 2005

The kids and I drove all over the place today because it was such a beautiful day. It felt at times that it could be 80 degrees out. I think it was more like 65-70-ish. The sun was shining and it just felt really good. We went to Moultonborough, NH today and visited a place called The Old Country Store. It has all kinds of stuff in it. It is filled to the rim with antiques and old penny candy (now 2 cents a piece) and even the old tin lunch boxes. (brand new ones). I am thinking of going back soon to buy my son the Batman tin lunch box as he starts school this fall. I got a few cards that were so pretty. The company who makes them is listed on You can go there and find a store that sells the cards in your area by typing in your zip code.
We then went to a nursery to buy some flowers. We bought lots of good ones like creeping plants that bloom and lavander (which I LOVE!). I also bought a potted strawberry plant that the kids and I can take care of together and at the end of the summer be able to eat the fruit of our labor.
I just took a blueberry cake out of the oven that my daughter helped me make tonight after dinner. We bought the blueberries at a local country market in Center Harbor, NH. I think my husband has eaten half the cake already. :)

Not much else to tell. The garden is looking lush and the kids are now in bed. The house is much quieter and it is time to wind down so that we can enjoy another full day tomorrow.

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Funny thing...

"Isn't it splendid to think of all the things there are to find out about? It just makes me feel glad to be alive--it's such an interesting world. It wouldn't be half so interesting if we know all about everything, would it? There'd be no scope for imagination then, would there?"

Quote from Anne Of Green Gables by Lucy Maud Montgomery

I hate HTML

I am in the process of learning HTML codes and such. I am having a hard time, though, trying to figure out where to put the actual links for my home page of this blooger. I know I will get it soon but it is still frustrating.
Also, I will be making my own template for this blogger as soon as I can figure it out. It is not too hard but I have a lot to learn still. Good thing I am a quick study.